Another long pause…

June 6, 2010

Can’t believe it’s almost been a month since I was last on.   I’ve been going through these long spells where I’ll take 2 or 3 weeks off of work, then go back and work 5 or 6 nights before the cycle repeats.  It screws with my concept of time as well as my sleep schedule.  I’m starting to get back into a regular schedule and try to get some overtime, but I’m starting to think my body liked being in the work 1 week off 3 schedule–mostly because I realize that I’ve got to drive back to Chapel Hill in 3 days to work 6 and I don’t really want to.

Work is weird and taxing now.  I didn’t realize how much expanding would change things.  Now that we have around-the-clock secretaries, my job is a lot more standing and stocking and cleaning.  There’s not nearly as much time for resting–I actually have to sit down with food and actively eat to make people understand that I am on “break,”  (and there are still some that don’t get it) whereas before if you were hungry, you sat with food in front of you, leisurely nibbling, and people understood that you weren’t to be bothered until the food was gone.  I think a lot of it has to do with the mixture of nurses we have now.  There are lots of new nurses (fresh out of school or converting from being a floor nurse) who still operate under the old school philosophy that NA’s do all the grunt work and it’s off-limits to ask another nurse to help you, no matter if that nurse isn’t busy at all.  I’ve literally been mid-stride into another patient’s room to do something, or been holding a patient up doing a bath and had a new nurse ask me to help them with something else.  I feel like telling them off, but I don’t, I just politely say that I’ll get to it as soon as I finish, or warn them that someone else has asked me to help them when I’m finished with my current task.  The day might come when I do tell one of them off–admittedly I have ignored a couple of them when they hollered at me from the other side of the unit.  It’s sad because my ally nurses see the way the other nurses treat me and they say how wrong it is, but most of them are so passive that they won’t say anything directly to the other nurses–the most aggressive action they take is to volunteer to help in my place, and unfortunately, the new nurses are usually so consumed with themselves and their patients, that they don’t even notice.  ::sigh:: I miss Ila too.  JJ and I have grown much closer since Ila left, and Lauren worked with us the other weekend, which was a pleasant change.  Melia works herself to the bone, our charge usually sits at the nurse’s station the entire night, and the rest of the nurses are newbies who work their entire 3 nights in a row.  It stinks, because if you start with a newbie, you know you’ve got to put up with them for at least 2 more nights–very painful.  I have hopes that they’ll learn soon, but then I just open my email and notice that we have 10 more newbies coming.  And now we’ve got newbie’s training newbie’s.  ::can of worms::

Still accumulating stuff.  Have two “barrels” almost full with barely breathing room, at ~80 lbs each.  Still more stuff accumulates, so it’s either add a third “barrel” or see how much we can fit in the $23/each checked luggage.  Still have more books to get, and still mother keeps trying to sneak in stupid stuff that I don’t want and don’t need.  There isn’t a nice way to tell her that I don’t want it–I know she’s trying to help, but it’s the same way every time I move–she gets me stupid useless stuff that I hate and she likes and then I take it just to be polite and it sits around the entire time I’m there because I legitimately don’t need it.  This time, we’re quantitatively having to pay for every pound and cubit foot of useless stuff and quite frankly, that’s another 30 packs of ramen I could be bringing with me so I don’t have to go out and buy $6 cereal.  She doesn’t get it.  I don’t know how to make her get it.  If I call her out on it, it’ll be ugly.  What do I passively aggressively do?

Making steady progress in Embryology.  Still have yet to get to Anatomy, but it seems somewhat pointless to try and start on veins and nerves and stuff without lecture and a cadaver.  I suppose I could start reviewing bones, that’s easy enough, and then muscles.  I learned cat muscles a Looooong time ago, but they’ll be useless here.  And from what I remember, the cadaver was most helpful with them.  It’s just not the same looking a book when you can take your lab kit and lift up layer upon layer of abdominal muscle.

I made a new friend on valuemd and facebook which is exciting!  I met some people from school earlier, but they weren’t nearly as enthusiastic as this new friend.  NF (I won’t give out his real name here) is just as enthusiastically nerdy as I am (he’s already as far in anatomy as I am in embryology!), and has been reading through the forums just as religiously as I have, only longer!  What a catch!  I hope he doesn’t turn out to be a jock.  I’m looking forward to hearing about his whole process on choosing MUA.  He’s Canadian, so I’m sure it’ll be different, given the whole loan thing.

Hoping I’ll make it to Staples to swap out some pens tonight.  Mom’s starting a new diet where I’m her new “diet coach,” so I suppose I should be useful and plan some meals.  It’s not rocket science (in fact, I can’t believe we pay people to be registered dietitians) it’s just making yourself eat what you know are the right foods–I’m making her do low carb, high un-processed, local fruits and vegetables.  It’d go much easier for her if she’d drink her water, but she’s too fixated on the caffeine-powers of soda and coffee.  Whatever, who listens to the wisdom of a 23-year-old anyway?

2 Responses to “Another long pause…”

  1. Ray said


    First of all I would like to thank you for your interesting and informative posts. Secondly, it is quite intriguing how you have kept updating the fellow readers of your progress through med school. I myself I am in the initial dilemma as you once were in, having low GPA and the insecurities about whether or not I will make it in med school, let alone find the loan to pay for it. I am Canadian and was wondering (whether you know or not, just have to ask :p) about the friend you made, how did he secure a loan to pay for a Caribbean med school?

    Hope to hear from you, when you can!
    – Ray

    • jenningers said

      Hey Ray,

      Thanks for writing. I’m glad the posts are helping to give you an idea of what the Caribbean medical school experience was like for me. Good luck in your process of research!

      Lots of Canadian folks went to school at MUA. I think many of them secured loans from their provinces. Others had parents who were physicians and did not need loans. I do not think any of them had to use Ed Invest.

      Hope this helps,

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